Archive | August 2012

The drive of passion

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Today, we celebrate Teachers’ Day in school. And yes, like what the picture says above, this is the perfect opportunity, the perfect time, to appreciate our teachers. Some of whom we take for granted. Their passion for educating students and their tenacity to change the lives of students and to inspire them, as well as to impart knowledge on them is something worth gaining recognition about. There are some teachers out there, those outstanding ones, who never fail to believe in you and listened to youΒ and for that, you are thankful. There are some teachers out there, whose knowledge and experience is like the vast ocean, that you can’t help but just admire them. There are those who are inspirational figures. There are also some teachers, where it was never a teacher-student relationship, but more of a relationship of two friends. And those teachers who may not be so close to you, but who are equally there to impart the knowledge and the skills in you, without whom you’re nothing. So, to all my teachers who have taught me before, be it in the past or in the present, be it very close or not so close, Happy Teachers’ Day. There is someone here who appreciates your hardwork, kindness and patience. As Alexander The Great said, “I am indebted to my father for living, but to my teacher for living well.”

So today is kinda the last day of school which marks the start of the September break. Hmmm, I have mixed feelings bout this holiday. Though I’d feel tired going to school, I think it can help me get my mind off things. I just hate recurring thoughts, thoughts which keep on coming back. It’s like driving me to the edges of mental well-being! Atleast going back to school will take my mind off these irritating recurring thoughts that is affecting my focus. And sometimes, I just can’t put a finger as to why I have these recurring thoughts. It’s like I’ll feel so sad and worried for no reason, or reasons which I can’t identify. And I really do not want this to affect my revision. I guess I really have to take a deep breath and relax and not to worry too much. Allah, please help me.

I’m finding less and less things to blog about! Hahaha. Nothing much has been happening in my life, except for the one above. Step Up Revolution releases today and I really wanna watch it! But I have to find the time, which is not by my side, to watch it. Bummer. I’m pretty pysched for The Great Gatsby though. After 1984, I’m gonna get my hands on that book and read it. After which, I’m going to watch the movie. It’s very classic, unlike the movies released nowadays. After Os, I’m definitely gonna read more classics and more literary books. I have this sudden urge to reread Sweet Revenge by Nora Roberts though!

I was a girl who loved the world of books, my backyard… my imagination had no limits. Essentially, I will always have that little girl inside me, often driving me artistically.” ~Dianna Agron

xoxo,

ShabiraBasheer πŸ™‚

 

 

The excerpt

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As promised, here’s the excerpt from “The Perks of Being a Wallflower”.

“There’s something about that tunnel that leads to downtown. It’s glorious at night. Just glorious. You start on one side of the mountain, and it’s dark, and the radio is loud. As you enter the tunnel, the wind gets sucked away, and you squint from the lights overhead. When you adjust to the lights, you can see the other side in the distance just as the sound of the radio fades to nothing because the waves just can’t reach. Then, you’re in the middle of the tunnel, and everything becomes a calm dream. As you see the opening get closer, you just can’t get there fast enough. And finally, just when you think you’ll never get there, you see the opening right in front of you. And the radio comes back even louder than you remember it. And the wind is waiting. And you fly out of the tunnel onto the bridge. And there it is. The city. A million lights and buildings and everything seems as exciting as the first time you saw it. It really is a grand entrance.”

I chose this excerpt from the book because this was one of the real and meaningful events that took place in the book. It really describes how Charlie felt, and how it made him truly happy to be able to go through that tunnel and come out of it whilst his friendsΒ were driving. It made him feel, as the book says, “infinite”.

Not only that, this book also taught me really important lessons. Like being honest, to your friends. While I was reading this book, I had some thoughts. I wasn’t so sure whether I made a right decision. I kept questioning it, which actually, isn’t so good because then you’ll always not be sure of yourself. However, after reading that particular part, I became more convinced that I indeed, made the right decision afterall. Those who read the book, I’m talking bout the part where Charlie was with Sam, helping Sam to pack for college. It’s extremely important to be honest with your friends. Because if you aren’t, then you’re not actually being his/her friend at all. We should all voice out our feelings to our friends, and it’s ohkays to do so. It shows you’re a good friend. If you don’t, you’re being unjust to both yourself and to your friend.

Yeaps πŸ™‚ I’ve currently started on George Orwell’s 1984, but I guess it’ll take me sometime to finish it as part 2 of prelims are approaching. My history and SS teacher recommended me that book, and indeed, I’m glad she recommended 1984 to me. From the first page of it, I could already sense the ‘negative utopia’, as stated in the synopsis of the book.

Yesterday, went out with Syafiqah to PP to hunt for Teachers’ Day Prezzies. Thanks for the day, Syafiqah! And I wanted to buy this particular iphone casing which had this USA flag on it, but apparently, it was cleared out. *sobs* I should’ve just bought it the first time I saw. -____-

Is it just me, or is wordpress making everything disappear when you publish it? I think it’s the lagging of the word count :S

School starts tomorrow and next week is gonna be the last week and it’s september holidays. Have a great week ahead! πŸ˜€

Are you a wallflower too?

xoxo,

ShabiraBasheer πŸ™‚

 

It’s Time

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Before I start things off, I think the above picture speaks for it all. I mean really, when we grow older to become adults, we just lose our sense of creativity. We become more static, going by the books, following the rules instead of finding bends and loopholes to manouvre and play around with. I mean, what happened to the child inside us? Who was always so inquisitive and creative, and always looking for solutions – as eccentric and bizarre as they may be – to problems? Now, as adults, we’re just going to look for the most obvious solutions, the most easiest ones, without even thinking deeper and saying, “Hey, do I actually have another way, a more interesting way, to approach this problem?” Yeahs. That’s why creative adults are the ones who never forgo their inner child within them. Their inquisitiveness and their creativeness when they were a child never left them. Instead of being normal and following everybody else, they, they made a choice, a choice to be unlike the rest.

Just some random thoughts that I suddenly thought about when searching for a quote to start off this blogpost πŸ˜€ Ohkays, this week was well, FASSSTTT. I know, as cliche as it may sound, and as frequent as you might’ve heard it, I feel time passes SOOOOO FAST, LIKE EXTREMELY FAST. It’s just 59 days left – according to my friends – to Os. I’m like “Oh my!” I still have that mentality that Os are still quite a few months away ohmygod. Yes, I’ve started full scale studying but I’m just shell-shocked that time is ticking by at an amazingly fast speed, to the point that it’s just 2 months away to my Os.

This week, I watched the class video that two of my classmates made, and I felt so happy and honoured that they put my song recommendation as the soundtrack for the video! The song was “It’s Time” by Imagine Dragons. I initially heard it in the Glee S4 promo – it was used as the background music – and I realized I loved that song. So I scrolled through the comments to search for the song title and the singer (in this case, a band) and found it! Then I realized that the song was also used for the trailer of “The Perks of Being A Wallflower”!!!!! It’s a really sentimental song, and has that graduation feel to it, as the message behind the song was very meaningful and was appropriate for a graduating class, who will part ways. Fortunately, many of my classmates thought the song was nice and appropriate and I was like “Yay!” I’m thrilled to be able to contribute to something for my class, even if it’s just really really really tiny.

That said, I managed to get hold of The Perks of Being a Wallflower (LIKE FINALLY!) and finished reading it. Above all, I really liked the story because it was so poignant, and for a teenager, it is relatable in a lot of ways. A Wallflower means a person who didn’t really stood out in school. He/She is just living in the sidelines, not being the centre of attention, just blending in with the wave of students, observing everything around him/her. But nevertheless, this book taught me that it’s not important to be popular at all. What’s more important is that you have friends who will accept you for who you are, real friends who will stick by you and be there for you no matter the circumstances, friends, as the trailer suggests who will “let you in”. And I could relate to Charlie in a lot of ways. I’m a wallflower too – but I have friends who are really sweet and kind, friends who treat me normally and accepted me for who I am, friends who “let me in” and for that I am blessed πŸ™‚ I am also an avid reader, just like Charlie is and I especially loved the relationship he shares with Bill – his English teacher. They are not just teacher and student, but more of friends. I can’t help being reminded of my relationship with Ms Lim – because I treat her as my close friend and sister too πŸ™‚

I’ll put up an excerpt probably tomorrow as I have to do my homework now and WordPress is really sucky. Everything is like gone when I publish it! Only half of what I typed remained -___-

Kay, need get back to homework! See you guys and have a great weekend!

Random

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Today is actually a public holiday in lieu of Eid. Hmmm, actually wanted to go out visiting relatives coz I’m quite free but people kept on coming, one after the other. So yeahs, couldn’t actually go out even if I wanted to LOL.

Since I’m stuck at home, might as well just do some extra work for my Chem so that I won’t be too stressed up tomorrow for the Chem Mock P2 on Wednesday.

I have this really scared feeling that I’m not able to complete my revision for my subjects. Especially for Biology and History. GRRRR ~ Really scared feeling. Kay, I’m actually talking rubbish right now because I actually do not have much to say hahahaha. Oh! I went out to cuzzie’s house yesterday and it was HYSTERICAL. Cuzzie showed me photos of when they were little and it was just hilarious! I laughed so hard that I accidentally flung the photo album to one side! But really, I feel so happy with them and I’m really really close to them. They’re really fun to be around with πŸ™‚

Stop thinking about it. It’s not worth it, really.

xoxo,

ShabiraBasheer πŸ™‚

 

Eid 2012

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Ohkays, so today is the last day of Ramadhan, and well, the tadbir officially marks the end of Ramadhan. To be honest, I feel sad that Ramadhan left us. Sure, I felt exhausted and lethargic during this Ramadhan period and I wasn’t able to do as much work as I can when I have food with me during the day. However, it is ultimately the most blessed month ever. The month where your prayers would be answered and the month where you are able to redeem yourself and detoxify yourself.

I could feel my prayers being answered, but alas, some negative and scary thoughts went back to my mind after so long. I have no idea why it did and I hope with the help of Allah, I’m able to supress it and make them go away permanently. I’m just hoping Allah SAW will forgive me.

That said, tomorrow is already Eid. Hmmmm, again to be honest, I don’t have that festive mood in me this year. True, the mood of festivity hangs in the air, waiting to make someone get into the mood. But, it’s different for me. Perhaps because firstly, my Os are coming and I don’t think I can go visiting out much and secondly, my dad isn’t all too well, so even if I CAN go out, I don’t think I’d be able to go out that much. Yeahs….. And there’s yet again the awkwardness I would feel when visiting my aunties’ and uncles’ houses. The momentary panic you’ll feel when you realize you’re not with your family members in your aunty’s/uncle’s house. The constant confusion you’ll experience when you’re not sure to offer a seat to an aunty/uncle. The awkward small talk you’ll have with your not so close cousins whom you’ll only meet annually. The exasperated (and bloated) feeling when your relatives just keep piling servings of food on your plate.

But of course, let’s not look at the negatives. Eid is ultimately, the only time in the year where we meet up with our relatives, some whom we have not seen for a gazillion years. It is the time where relations are always cordial and everybody is either smiling or laughing or joking around. There is much happiness and the atmosphere is very light and joyous. It’s a surreal and heartwarming feeling, because at the end of the day, they’re your family πŸ™‚

Oh wells, let’s just see what tomorrow would bring πŸ™‚ Eid Mubarak to all my Muslim brothers and sisters πŸ™‚

School has been ohkays πŸ™‚ My EL Oral went pretty well (in my opinion) but my MT O level results, hmmmm not quite well. But it’s not entirely our fault because the Paper 2 was actually tough. I’m considering retaking my MT Os. I have to get that a distinction.

Have a great weekend everybody! πŸ™‚

xoxo,

ShabiraBasheer πŸ™‚

The examiner and the student

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Today was my English O Level Oral examinations! I’ve gotta admit, I was pretty frightened by it, because ultimately it was my Os we’re talking bout here and I’m worried I won’t be able to give my fullest attention and complete focus to it.

However, it actually turned out pretty okay! I was kinda shocked at the conversation questions – because I expected it to be harder and more interesting. Nevertheless, I was quite happy when they asked me that question as I gave my complete and honest answer, and and and I brought up examples! I hope the examiners will be impressed and I’ll be able to earn marks πŸ™‚ the picture was a little bit challenging but still, it was manageable.

Anyways, I would really like to thank Mrs Theseira for doing up all the formalities with the examiners regarding my speech problem πŸ™‚

Ohkays, should probably turn in now. That’s the problem with me – and all teenagers alike for that matter. When I wake up every morning, I promised myself that I’ll sleep earlier on that night. But I always don’t LOL.

Have a great week ahead!

Xoxo,
ShabiraBasheer πŸ™‚