Ohkays, so this week hasn’t been an all too great a week a for me. I got back most of my prelim results and as my intuition says, I did not do as well as I hoped I would do. Some of them were extremely disappointing and to tell you guys the truth, I really have no idea how to break the news to my parents. I mean, they’ll be shocked with the grades of 2 of my subjects – and that is history and A math. They’ll be really shocked and disappointed, and most probably angry too, with the grades I got for these 2 results. I dunno if it’s the Asian mentality, but it’s kinda true here for most Singaporean kids. Their parents will priotize the grades you get above all else. They don’t really care about the effort you put in, nor will they give you any encouragement or motivation for you to improve. Instead, they’ll just dishearten you further and make you even more upset. I dunno. Perhaps that’s just my parents. I don’t mean to put my parents in a bad light here, but it is kinda the truth.
I honestly didn’t know where I went wrong. Was it because I wasn’t focused during the exams due to some recurring thoughts that I keep on getting, and that’s getting on my nerves a lot? Or was it really I did not know how to do? For history, it was misreading of sources, and for A Math, I think it was I did not know how to do some of the questions. Or was it careless mistakes? I know for Chem it was definitely careless mistake. And that really irks me A LOT.
But at the end of the day, it’s not about the grades you get. It’s about improving yourself and finding a way to deal with the setbacks and failures. It is inevitable to fail, but what is really important is how you deal with them. You can choose to become motivated by it, proving yourself that this failures will not happen again, or you can choose to be crushed by it. For me, I’d prefer the former. Sure I was upset but I realized that it’s not going to help just by moping about. And yes, like what Belle said, it’s sometimes good to meet setbacks and failures because if we don’t we may ultimately get complacent. Sometimes, we have to fall first and get a taste of what that feels like, before we can rise up. Some of the most successful people we know now never did have success all the time, but rather they had loads of failures. However, they chose to rise up from it and learn from it, thereby being successful. And yes, at the end of the day, it’s the O level results that matters.
So to all the people who gave me their advices and comforted me, a BIG thank you to all of you, especially to Belle 🙂
I listened to some Glee songs from the first episode of the fourth season, and I gotta say, I really loved “Never Say Never”. At first I thought it was a Justin Beiber song, but it’s DEFINITELY NOT JB’s song. I don’t think JB is also even capable of singing those kind of soulful songs. Here’s the video. It’s sung by Jake Puckerman, Puck’s younger half-brother and his voice is really good. I liked it from the first time I listened to it.
It’s extremely beautiful.
Ohkays, now I must get back to mugging. There’s only 32 more days to Os! O_O