So today’s New Years’ Eve! And, like every year, I’m bound to dedicate a post on the 31st of Dec of each year, musing about the year and reflecting on the good events and the not-so-good events that took place during the course of the year.
So of course, this year’s main highlight, or main problem to be specific enough, was my A levels. I turned 18 this year, and like every other 18 year old who’s in junior college, I prepared for my As for about 8 to 9 months. Of course, all of you might already know how dreadful and tough and gruelling As was. It was a period which I so desperately want to forget, but I know that I can never, ever, forget my A level experience. Heck, it was my toughest and darkest academic journey of my life (so far), enough to overshadow the good things that actually took place in this year to be honest.
However, I do not want to be entirely negative because I ultimately conquered the big A in the end and my days now are happy, I do not have much to worry about other than finding a job, scholarships, awards etc etc haha (none of which are as severe as my As).
2014 was however, the best year of concerts for me. I attended the Mosaic Music Festival and it was special for me because it was the first concert I’ve ever been to – Washed Out was playing. Also, it was the last year of that festival so I felt lucky and blessed because at least I went for this last ever festival, after a successful running of a decade. And and and, the concert tix was super cheap. If I’m not wrong, it was 25 bucks. Hahaha super cheap indeed. Love my dream pop/synth pop Washed Out ❤
But the best one yet was about 3-4 months later when I went to BOMBAY BICYCLE CLUB’S GIG. Bombay Bicycle Club is one of my favourite bands of all time because they are so versatile and they are humble (and the fact that they produce such wonderful music is enough to love them entirely). So when I found out that they are coming to SG after 4 years to do their So Long, See You Tomorrow tour, I jumped at the opportunity and purchased their tix on my 18th birthday itself 😀 (present to myself – yes there is such a thing). And to hear one of your favourite bands play live, among a crowd who equally loves them as much as you do, and who would sing along as loud as they can to their songs such that they drowned out Jack Steadman’s voice on some occassions, that was an unforgettable memory, one that will stay with me for eternity. I’ll always remember the atmosphere, the feeling, the mood of concerts because they are just so amazing and lively. It makes you forget all your problems, and you’d feel like the luckiest girl alive. I love concerts.
So that was the highlight of my 2014.
Lastly, my 2014 journey was a very gruelling and tough one. But one thing’s for sure – I wasn’t alone in my journey. I had my friends with me – seven sexy sluts, A08, triple threat – by my side at all points in time. I had all my teachers with me – JC teachers and secondary school teachers and my math tutor. And most importantly, I had my family with me. These groups of people supported me, helped me, reassured me, calmed me (god knows how many times they told me to CALM MYSELF), advised me and pushed me forward to be the best version of myself. And without them, I never would have been able to survive the year. I agreed I wasn’t always the best version of myself at all times, because I did snapped, I did get pissed off and I got annoyed and impatient. But they stood by me through thick and thin and they still accepted me despite knowing my flaws and my ugly side, so I thank them for that and I appreciate them for that 🙂
2014 was also a year filled with lots of embarrassments – especially in terms of crushes omg. I shan’t elaborate because my god, I just want to get past them HAHAHAA.
I hope 2015 will be good to me, I hope I will continue to grow and improve myself. I hope I will be able to maintain good relationships with my friends and I hope I will grow stronger in the face of adversities and I hope I won’t give up too fast, too easily. I want to be a happier person – a person who will learn how to calm down, a person who won’t have anxiety attacks, a person who will be able to shake off things and be carefree and more optimistic. I do not want my days to be filled with much worry all the time, but instead I want to live my days off to the fullest and focus on the things that really matter. And as for my family, I hope I’ll grow to be more patient so I can be a better daughter to my parents and a better sister to my siblings and a better aunt to my niece and nephew 🙂
Here’s to welcoming 2015. My advice: enjoy and make the most of it 🙂