Archive | April 2015

Don’t be so hard on yourself

“Something I like to do is envision a vision of myself that I really admire, without the failings and insecurities that I normally have. He gets everything – confidence, self-assurance, a sense of humour, motivation, passion… Everything I wish I had, or do have but don’t give myself enough credit for. Then I name them, whether it’s Future you or a completely different name, or a version of your name, to solidify the picture.

Then simply, when you’re in a rough spot, imagine that person coming in, tapping the weaker version of you out, telling you to go take a break, and then just become that other person, like you’re playing a character, and build up those habits, think like that person would, behave like that person would, become them.”


I got this from twitter, not tumblr 🙂 And it made me smile today because it’s such an amazing advice/technique to try on yourself 🙂

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The Book Thief

Finished yet another book! (I love 2015 so far) and this time, it’s Marcus Zusak’s The Book Thief 😀 I watched the movie back when it was released, and although I had no overwhelmingly urgent feeling to get my hands on the book and embark on Liesel Meminger’s world, I somehow just bought that book for 13 bucks on Carousell, and I went on a journey with the book thief. What strikes out to me in this book is that the story is told by an omniscient narrator called Death. Yeah you heard that right. It is told by Death’s point of view, and frankly I think Marcus Zusak is a genius for coming up with this creative idea. In this book, death is humanized, he is not regarded as someone or something as evil and malicious and greedy for souls, but more so he becomes “haunted by humans” and there are some instances where he becomes weary at what he does. He does not take pride nor revel in his achievements at being in so many places at one time. He takes the opportunity to look at what us humans do, and from him, I learnt more about human nature more than I ever would if told by an actual human narrator. It’s nearing World War 2, Liesel Meminger’s brother is found dead, she is abandoned by her mother and given to the care of her foster parents. Her foster mum rules the household with an iron fist. Her foster dad plays the accordion and teaches her how to read. She befriends a local boy called Rudy Stein (who is absolutely adorable). When World War 2 approaches, she learns that her foster parents did an unthinkable yet humane act – hiding a Jew (his name is Max) in their basement.

This is one of Max’s story which he gave to Liesel, and I found it absolutely meaningful with its figurative language and use of metaphors. Even if you’ve never read the book before, just try to pick out the meaning/point of the story. Liesel is a German girl. Max is a German Jew – hated by his homeland by practically everybody. An unlikely bond – united by their love for words and their experience at being abandoned – develops between them both, a bond that can transcend politics, hatred and anti-Semitism because it’s innocent, immaculate and pure.


There was once a strange, small man. He decided three important details about his life:

  1. He would part his hair from the opposite side to everyone else.
  2. He would make himself a small, strange mustache.
  3. He would one day rule the world.

The young man wandered around for quite some time, thinking, planning and figuring out exactly how to make the world his. Then one day, out of nowhere, it struck him – the perfect plan. He’d seen a mother walking with her child. At one point, she admonished the small boy, until finally, he began to cry. Within a few minutes, she spoke very softly to him, after which he was soothed and even smiled. The young man rushed to the woman and embraced her. “Words!” He grinned. “What?” But there was no reply. He was already gone.

Yes, the Fuhrer decided that he would rule the world with words. “I will never fire a gun,” he devised. “I will not have to.” Still, he was not rash. Let’s allow him at least that much. He was not a stupid man at all.

His first plan of attack was to plant the words in as many areas of his homeland as possible. He planted them day and night, and cultivated them. He watched them grow, until eventually, great forests of words had risen throughout Germany…. It was a nation of farmed thoughts.

While the words were growing, our young Fuhrer also planted seeds to create symbols, and these, too, were well on their way to full bloom.

Now the time had come. The Fuhrer was ready. He invited his people toward his own glorious heart, beckoning them with his finest, ugliest, hand-picked from his forests. And the people came. They were all placed on a conveyor belt and run through a rampant machine that gave them a lifetime in ten minutes. Words were fed into them. Time disappeared and they now knew everything they needed to know. They were hypnotized. Next, they were fitted with their symbols, and everyone was happy.

Soon, the demand for the lovely ugly words and symbols increased to such a point that as the forests grew, many people were needed to maintain them. Some were employed to climb the trees and throw the words down to those below. They were then fed directly into the remainder of the Fuhrer’s people, not to mention those who came back for more.

The people who climbed the trees were called word shakers. The best word shakers were the ones who understood the true power of words. They were the ones who could climb the highest. One such word shaker was a small, skinny girl. She was renowned as the best word shaker of her region because she knew how powerless a person could be without words. That’s why she could climb higher than anyone else. She had desire. She was hungry for them.

One day, however, she met a man who was despised by her homeland, even though he was born in it. They became good friends, and when the man was sick, the word shaker allowed a single teardrop to fall on his face. The tear was made of friendship – a single world – and it dried and became a seed, and when next the girl was in the forest, she planted that seed among the other trees. She watered it every day. At first, there was nothing, but one afternoon, when she checked it after a day of word-shaking, a small sprout had shot up. She stared at it for a long time.

The tree grew every day, faster than everything else, till it was the tallest tree in the forest. Everyone came to look at it. They all whispered about it, and they waited… for the Fuhrer. Incensed, he immediately ordered the tree to be cut down. That was when the word shaker made her way through the crowd. She fell to her hands and knees. “Please,” she cried, “you can’t cut it down.”

The Fuhrer, however, was unmoved. He could not afford to make exceptions. As the word shaker was dragged away, he turned to his right-hand man and made a request. “Ax, please.” At that moment, the word shaker twisted free. She ran. She boarded the tree, and even as the Fuhrer hammered at the trunk with his ax, she climbed until she reached the highest of the branches. The voices and ax beats continued faintly on. Clouds walked by – like white monsters with gray hearts. Afraid but stubborn, the word shaker remained. She waited for the tree to fall. But the tree would not move. Many hours passed, and still, the Fuhrer’s ax could not take a single bite out of the trunk. In a state nearing collapse, he ordered another man to continue.

Days passed. Weeks took over. A hundred and ninety-six soldiers could not make any impact on the word shaker’s tree. “But how does she eat?” the people asked. “How does she sleep?” What they didn’t know was that other word shakers threw supplies across, and the girl climbed down to the lower branches to collect them.

It snowed. It rained. Season came and went. The word shaker remained. When the last axman gave up, he called up to her. “Word shaker! You can come down now! There is no one who can defeat this tree!” The word shaker, who could only just make out the man’s sentences, replied with a whisper. She handed it down through the branches. “No thank you,” she said, for she knew that it was only herself who was holding the tree upright.

No one knew how long it had taken, but one afternoon, a new axman walked into town. His bag looked too heavy for him. His eyes dragged. His feet dropped with exhaustion. “The tree,” he asked the people. “Where is the tree?” An audience followed him, and when he arrived, clouds had covered the highest regions of the branches. The word shaker could hear the people calling out that a new axman had come to put an end to her vigil. “She will not come down,” the people said, “for anyone.”

They did not know who the axman was, and they did not know that he was undeterred.

He opened his bag and pulled out something much smaller than an ax. The people laughed. They said, “You can’t chop a tree down with an old hammer!” The young man did not listen to them. He only looked through his bag for some nails. He placed three of them in his mouth and attempted to hammer a fourth one into the tree. The first branches were now extremely high and he estimated that he needed four nails to use as footholds to reach them. “Look at this idiot,” roared one of the watching men. “No one else could chop it down with an ax, and this fool thinks he can do it with –“. The man fell silent. The first nail entered the tree and was held steady after five blows. Then the second went in, and the young man started to climb. By the fourth nail, he was up in the arms and continued on his way. He was tempted to call out as he did so, but he decided against it. The climb seemed to last for miles. It took many hours for him to reach the final branches, and when he did, he found the word shaker asleep in her blankets and the clouds. He watched her for many minutes. The warmth of the sun heated the cloudy rooftop. He reached down, touching her arm, and the word shaker woke up.

She rubbed her eyes, and after a long study of his face, she spoke. “Is it really you?” Is it from your cheek, she thought, that I took the seed? The man nodded. His heart wobbled and he held tighter to the branches. “It is.” Together, they stayed in the summit of the tree. They waited for the clouds to disappear, and when they did, they could see the rest of the forest. “It wouldn’t stop growing,” she explained. “But neither would this.” The young man looked at the branch that held his hand. He had a point. When they had looked and talked enough, they made their way back down. They left the blankets and remaining food behind.

The people could not believe what they were seeing, and the moment the word shaker and the young man set foot in the world, the tree finally began to show the ax marks. Bruises appeared. Slits were made in the trunk and the earth began to shiver. “It’s going to fall!” a young woman screamed. “The tree is going to fall!” She was right. The word shaker’s tree, in all its miles and miles of height, slowly began to tip. It moaned as it was sucked to the ground. The world shook, and when everything finally settled, the tree was laid out among the rest of the forest. It could never destroy all of it, but if nothing else, a different-coloured path was carved through it.

The word shaker and the young man climbed up to the horizontal trunk. They navigated the branches and began to walk. When they looked back, they noticed that the majority of onlookers had started to return to their own places. In there. Out there. In the forest. But as they walked on, they stopped several times, to listen. They thought they could hear voices and words behind them, on the word shaker’s tree.


Overall, this book just tore me to pieces. It showed me not all Germans hate the Jews, but they were just helpless and frightened out of their wits in the Hitler era to rebel and go against the Fuhrer. It showed me the true meaning of kindness, sacrifice, friendship, bravery and what it means to love words. Such a wonderfully written book.