epiphany. according to dictionary.com, it says “a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.”
I had an epiphany today. Of how much I missed, of how much I love to write about the most intimate & not so intimate parts of my life, of why I write.
Maybe it’s not just an experience or occurrence; I think it was experienceS/occurrenceS. The grammar is important. It means more than one occurrence. It means that events that have been building up; thoughts which have been bottling up inside me, churning inside me; all needing to be unleashed. It just needed a catalyst, a spark, a turning point.
I write because I want to let this volcano within me to finally erupt, I write because I find solace in writing down words (in this case typing) that illustrates how I feel, because I need to be able to explain them. I write because I know I can never properly describe my thoughts and feelings in any other way. I write to make sense of who I truly am.
I have 2 weeks now that my internship is over. I hope this spark within me to write, the spark that has long since diminished because the realities of life have bogged me down and made me forget where my true passion; my true happiness; my true catharsis really lies will continue even after my 2 weeks are up.
I felt this spark in Ramadan (June 24th 2017) once. And I’m glad I felt it within me again, today. Who knows when I’ll feel it again, when it’ll be gone. But I’ll try my best to keep it in.